So today I had a good amount of time when all my "help" left the house and I was sitting at home in a VERY quiet house. Me by myself and both babies were sleeping. I was able to watch a movie I had on DVR from the night before, and I was actually watching it. I don't know the last time I had been able to sit through a movie AT HOME... BY MYSELF.. without interruptions. So at a moment like this I felt like I was supermom. I can handle anything, just me and the girls. (and cocoa of course) Whenever I am alone with the girls, its like cocoa knows. He comes and sits close to me like "I'm here for you!" :)
THEN, Adelyn wakes up.. OK I can handle this.. give her a little bit of her bottle then she just sits next to me calmly watching the movie. So good so far.
THEN, Emma wakes up. That's when the problem starts. Now she wakes up starving, and Adelyn is ready for round two. Two screaming babies, one mommy. Luckily its almost time for my husband to come home that he said he would be on his way. By this point, I have 2 hungry and poopy babies! So I can only do one thing at a time, so I am changing Emma while Adelyn is in the other room crying, dad comes through the door and saves the day. We got them changed, fed, and put back down to sleep.
Very quickly I can go from feeling like supermom and I can conquer the world, to me feeling like the worst mom in the world and why would I be the one given two precious babies to take care of...
I just always think to myself what people used to tell me "God will not give you more than you can handle." Also, I had a very sweet young ballet class this year, and for the recital they danced to "My All in All". I always think about them and the first line in the song, you are my strength when I am weak, and then I just stop there. Sometimes I feel VERY weak, but He is strong.
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